The crazy roller coaster of infertility rolls on! So much has happened. Tears, to joy, to sadness to relief. We have experienced it all lately!
Since my last post we have had a Semen Analysis, got devastating results (what I thought). Went to a urologist, which his advice was to get drunk (super professional), do another test and an ultrasound. Went back to my gyno, he said it wasn't that bad actually. If it's less than 5% then we start to worry. Tears, madness, relief
When we first saw the reality of only 8.5% normal sperm, I was shocked. In the 118 million only 8.5% normal? So that means 91.5% abnormal. I was convinced with my ovulation condition and his bad sperm, we will never concieve! It was a flood of emotions, and I was at work when we found out. I spoke to my family, which in normal circumstances would make me feel better. It didn't, even when our outlook was bleak, I wanted them to be positive. All I got was, there are a lot of childless couples out there. I was hysterical. My poor husband was holding it together for me, for us, because I was hyperventilating and crying so much I cannot talk. Thankfully we calmed me down, sent many reassuring messages that NO matter what, we would be parents, and great ones at that.
That night, he broke down. I hate to see any man cry, especially my own husband. He was bawling. Finally we got it together and decided we would get through this with God and us. No more tests for him, cancelled his ultrasound and went on our way!
At my latest appointment I had a good egg on the left side! Yay! I would ovulate that night. He read my mind and said if there was no progress, we have two options. Insemination with the RE or try clomid, but I have to be okay with twins! So we decided clomid!
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