Remembering My March Baby

My sweet little grandma knows me all too well. She said, I want to give you this but it will make you cry. She was right. This empty carriage represents our little one that passed too soon. I always knew I would get an ornament for baby's first Christmas, but I never imagined I would have to have an ornament for our angel. Praying this Christmas we not only celebrate the birth of Jesus, but the birth of a new pregnancy! All my faith is in him!

CD 14!

Well, I'm officially on CD 14, and I don't think I will ovulate today, probably tomorrow. My strip is definitely darker, but not as dark as the control line just yet! Which stinks, because I only have one ovulation strip left! :\

I feel very confident about this cycle, my husband has been a great comforter and supporter and truly believes we won't need IUI!

This is my baby niece, Kayleigh, who I babysit every weekend. She was semi cranky Saturday, but was her usual adorable self Sunday! (Saturday was my first full day by myself - my husband was away at a PE Leadership Conference) & I have to say, I did excellent! My momma did come over, like she does every Sat/Sun at 11am after feeding my sister's dogs and watched her for 15 minutes while I went to the bank, but it was a successful weekend! :)

CD- 14
Symptoms- super full & crampy (which ironically- I LOVE because it means my ovaries are working in full swing and one of you (or two) follicles will release an egg!

Bring on The Christmas BFP!

Getting Closer to My Christmas Miracle

I find myself researching IUI. When I do, I stop.

I won't need IUI, I know it. I have faith that God will bless me with our Christmas miracle of becoming pregnant.

I love my doctor and all, but we did this on our own once. ( well, not technically on our own. A few drs visits, Femara 5mg x 5 days, ultrasounds, soft cups, and progesterone suppositories) but, it was natural! No doctor had to inject anything or do a sperm wash. We did it.

We can do this, again!

I have been praying to God for peace of mind and comfort. He delivered. Andrew and I feel confident that this month will work!

Praying!

Good News/ Bad News

I had my CD 10 ultrasound this morning, alone. Andrew had to work and we want him to save up his vacation time for maternity leave.

I had what looks like a cyst in the right side, could be a corpus luteum that hasn't released from last month, and a good size 14.2mm on the left side. So I should ovulate in about 4 days. He decided not to do the shot this month, I'm kind of confused as to why.

He then said that if this doesn't work, he suggests an IUI. Intrauterine Insemination. I had a mini breakdown inside, he could tell. He said he hates to keep dragging me along when one round of IUI may do the trick. He went on to say he knows I ovulate on this medication. That works. So it must be Andrews sperm. He re-reviewed his semen analysis and said his high debris may be keeping the sperm from reaching my egg.

I broke down. If this month doesn't work, no more doing it natural. After this, a doctor will inject the sperm to get it as close to the egg as possible. That's exactly how I dreamt of having my sweet baby. Not hardly.

What I wouldn't give to get pregnant for free... :(