I was already to write a woe is me post on how I am so disappointed in my body and how I feel like I won't ever get pregnant, until I logged onto Kohls.com. :)
I still feel like Debbie Downer, but the new Keurig Mini plus at Kohls is supposedly 124.99. On Sale for 99.99. I added it to my cart and it automatically changed it to 89.99 with no promo code! Added Cyber20 promo code and got it for 76.31, tax included! & free shipping! Merry Christmas to my In Laws!
Also, I scored the Parallels 8 software my nephew wants for Christmas after dealing with incompetent people at Best Buy saying that they don't even have it listed on the website! So, since it was on sale this week from 79.99 to 59.99, I got on my phone and ordered it through the website! With our best buy gift card, only paid $38!
And I bought my momma eggless cookbooks! Feeling accomplished!
Left on our Christmas List
Andrews- secret!
Whitney (treys GF)- pandora charm
Papaw- 6 ft ladder
Grandma Stewart- clock
Dad- Nikon binoculars!
And that's pretty much it! :)
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Negative Again
Story. Of. My. Life.
I don't even know what to do anymore. I thought for real this was it.. All the symptoms mean nothing... Nothing..
I am so tired of trying and trying.. Is this really Gods way of telling me I'm not meant to have my own baby?! Maybe I won't have enough patience and this is his way of telling me to give it up.. Give up the dream..
I probably sound ridiculous since its only been 20 months.. And we haven't even done anything invasive.. But it's how I feel... Depressed...
I don't even know what to do anymore. I thought for real this was it.. All the symptoms mean nothing... Nothing..
I am so tired of trying and trying.. Is this really Gods way of telling me I'm not meant to have my own baby?! Maybe I won't have enough patience and this is his way of telling me to give it up.. Give up the dream..
I probably sound ridiculous since its only been 20 months.. And we haven't even done anything invasive.. But it's how I feel... Depressed...
Friday, November 23, 2012
One More Day!!!
Bring on Christmas! Thanksgiving has come and gone... Our dinners were great, deviled eggs were successful, Christmas lights went up outside, tree and decor is up as well &&&& gifts are wrapped! GO ME!!
I am working on a makeshift studio at home to take indoor pictures! And we have been shopping our little hearts out! Thank goodness because I have been driving myself crazyyyy!!!
CD (Cycle Day:) 27
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 13!!!!
Symptoms: exhausted! Boobs are getting more sore, waves of nausea every now and then and slight stomach cramps..
Thoughts: I want to go to bed so it can be tomorrow!!!!!
I am working on a makeshift studio at home to take indoor pictures! And we have been shopping our little hearts out! Thank goodness because I have been driving myself crazyyyy!!!
CD (Cycle Day:) 27
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 13!!!!
Symptoms: exhausted! Boobs are getting more sore, waves of nausea every now and then and slight stomach cramps..
Thoughts: I want to go to bed so it can be tomorrow!!!!!
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Oh Please Oh Please, OH PUH-LEASE!
I am so anxious, my cold sore has spread. Dang it.
Yesterday, I felt okay all day. (I was at work, so I wasn't 100%, but that is usually acceptable)! I came home, was hungry, ate dinner (later 930pm) and laid down to watch tv. Felt okay, just tired. Then, I cut my husband's hair, I immediately felt queasy during. I finished, sat down at the toilet, heaved a few times and vomited. Not a lot, but enough!
Last time I vomited, 1) I was probably 3 weeks pregnant (didn't know it) and vomited after eating chili, I attributed it to the chili. 2) I was pregnant (about 5 weeks) and felt terrible, flu like!
THIS HAS TO BE A GOOD SIGN! HAS TO! HAS TO!
Since I have been having these symptoms, I tested this morning. BFN, which I expected. It was a dollar store test. & last time I was pregnant, I tested on a Dollar Store test at 11dpo, NEG, 14DPO - positive!
FINGERS CROSSED!!!
CD (Cycle Day): 25
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 11 (so freaking close)
Symptoms: Not as tired, Boobs slightly sore, more stomach cramps, aches, nausea and VOMITED LAST NIGHT!!!! & as we speak, I feel nauseous! I HOPE SO!!!!
Thoughts: I'm seriously going to crawl up into a ball and lose it if I am not! AHH!!!!
Yesterday, I felt okay all day. (I was at work, so I wasn't 100%, but that is usually acceptable)! I came home, was hungry, ate dinner (later 930pm) and laid down to watch tv. Felt okay, just tired. Then, I cut my husband's hair, I immediately felt queasy during. I finished, sat down at the toilet, heaved a few times and vomited. Not a lot, but enough!
Last time I vomited, 1) I was probably 3 weeks pregnant (didn't know it) and vomited after eating chili, I attributed it to the chili. 2) I was pregnant (about 5 weeks) and felt terrible, flu like!
THIS HAS TO BE A GOOD SIGN! HAS TO! HAS TO!
Since I have been having these symptoms, I tested this morning. BFN, which I expected. It was a dollar store test. & last time I was pregnant, I tested on a Dollar Store test at 11dpo, NEG, 14DPO - positive!
FINGERS CROSSED!!!
CD (Cycle Day): 25
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 11 (so freaking close)
Symptoms: Not as tired, Boobs slightly sore, more stomach cramps, aches, nausea and VOMITED LAST NIGHT!!!! & as we speak, I feel nauseous! I HOPE SO!!!!
Thoughts: I'm seriously going to crawl up into a ball and lose it if I am not! AHH!!!!
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
4 More Days!
Okay, I am getting WAAAAY to excited! I will be one disappointed girl if this ends up being a bust! I have invested a lot in this cycle financially and emotionally. Its our first Official TTC cycle after my miscarriage. I have gotten to "into" it, over anaylzing every little thing, all the twinges, bloating, aches and pains.
Our little family desperately needs some good news, or we might go crazy! My husband has been having a rough time with basketball with the new coach and cannot wait for March to get here. && I don't want March to be here - is that bad?! March would be the month of little baby bean would have arrived. It will also basically mark 2 years of TTC (stopping BC). March 26th is also Andrew's 27th birthday. Another birthday, with no baby. Our LO was due March 26th at one point, but then changed to March 29th/March 30th after the Ultrasound.
So, I am getting nervous. I am not sure if thats why my stomach feels like it's in knots like it is, or if its gas, or if it's a real live baby! :)
CD (Cycle Day): 24
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 10!!!!
Symptoms: So tired! My boobs are still sensative. Been having a LOT of gas, stomach pains/cramps.
Thoughts: I need to calm down before I get my hopes up.. Doesn't it happen when you least expect it? Not when you try your hardest? Please tell me that gets thrown out the window with Infertility.
Our little family desperately needs some good news, or we might go crazy! My husband has been having a rough time with basketball with the new coach and cannot wait for March to get here. && I don't want March to be here - is that bad?! March would be the month of little baby bean would have arrived. It will also basically mark 2 years of TTC (stopping BC). March 26th is also Andrew's 27th birthday. Another birthday, with no baby. Our LO was due March 26th at one point, but then changed to March 29th/March 30th after the Ultrasound.
So, I am getting nervous. I am not sure if thats why my stomach feels like it's in knots like it is, or if its gas, or if it's a real live baby! :)
CD (Cycle Day): 24
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 10!!!!
Symptoms: So tired! My boobs are still sensative. Been having a LOT of gas, stomach pains/cramps.
Thoughts: I need to calm down before I get my hopes up.. Doesn't it happen when you least expect it? Not when you try your hardest? Please tell me that gets thrown out the window with Infertility.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
One Week Down! One To Go!!
I officially have one week left to wait!!!! Yay!!! Yesterday, I did manage to remember to test! It was the faintest positive! So Ovidrel still in my system! I am slightly relieved because I was nervous it wouldn't work at all! So, success! I will try to retest tomorrow, but who knows! ;)
CD (Cycle Day): 21
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 7!!!!
Symptoms: So tired! My boobs are sensitive but not necessarily hurting? If that makes sense!
Thoughts: I have been babysitting my niece every weekend.. Today she has been so very cranky! It actually make me cry a little! I sure hope that's not a bad sign! ;)
CD (Cycle Day): 21
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 7!!!!
Symptoms: So tired! My boobs are sensitive but not necessarily hurting? If that makes sense!
Thoughts: I have been babysitting my niece every weekend.. Today she has been so very cranky! It actually make me cry a little! I sure hope that's not a bad sign! ;)
Thursday, November 15, 2012
WOW. I have lost it..
I forgot again! Ahhhh! I wanted to see the double lines vanish slowly so I know it worked! I intended to test everyday until 14dpo! Boo!
Along with forgetting I test even tho I had a urine cup and pregnancy test set out, as my husband and I are leaving this morning from the garage. I backed my car out and proceeded to click the button to the garage and I watch as my husband is starting to back out and the garage door is going down! I screamed! Which did nothing! I tried hitting the button, nothing! Thank goodness my husband somewhat pays attention and saw it! Whew! Crisis averted! Did I mention I blame it on the progesterone?!?
CD (Cycle Day): 19
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 5
Symptoms: Nothing different.. Still exhausted, but I'm still working lol! My boobs aren't as sore.. Although, I have been very weirdly crampy. Almost like ovulation cramps or when I was pregnant before, like with stretching it causes pain.
Thoughts: I'm getting very frustrated with myself. And with these dang progesterone suppositories! I have never had such trouble with them and I have been on them since April! I put them in, very high. But by the morning, they are pretty much out! Annoying! As if me having a suppository up my wooha isn't enough!
Along with forgetting I test even tho I had a urine cup and pregnancy test set out, as my husband and I are leaving this morning from the garage. I backed my car out and proceeded to click the button to the garage and I watch as my husband is starting to back out and the garage door is going down! I screamed! Which did nothing! I tried hitting the button, nothing! Thank goodness my husband somewhat pays attention and saw it! Whew! Crisis averted! Did I mention I blame it on the progesterone?!?
CD (Cycle Day): 19
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 5
Symptoms: Nothing different.. Still exhausted, but I'm still working lol! My boobs aren't as sore.. Although, I have been very weirdly crampy. Almost like ovulation cramps or when I was pregnant before, like with stretching it causes pain.
Thoughts: I'm getting very frustrated with myself. And with these dang progesterone suppositories! I have never had such trouble with them and I have been on them since April! I put them in, very high. But by the morning, they are pretty much out! Annoying! As if me having a suppository up my wooha isn't enough!
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