Because, I had to get up at 5 am, I forgot to test! I'm blaming it on work! So, tomorrow will be 5 dpo & 6 days past Ovidrel (or as I would like to call it, the money shot)! Please, please please let my hormonal brain remember to test to see if this stinkin' shot is out of my system!
Stupid Work.
Stupid Progesterone..
Stupid Infertility....
So I can keep myself sane, and anyone who reads this too (which I doubt is anyone, as I do this mainly for myself) I am going to do a little questionnaire each time! :)
CD (Cycle Day): 18
DPO (Days Past Ovulation): 4
Symptoms: I feel like I have sore boobs, but it's probably all in my head.. normally is. Plus, I am tired, but I also work 3 jobs - DUH!
Thoughts: Today, I am somewhat thankful my Infertility journey isn't as detailed as others.. I have two friends, one considering IVF because she has Cystic Fibrosis and the other in the heat of her first IVF cycle! I have my fingers crossed and prayers sent for both of them!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
I Have Officially Lost It!
So in my previous post, I said I had 10 days to wait! Really?!? @ 2dpo, I have 10 days to wait? Wow!
So, at 3dpo, I now have 11 days left to wait! Oih! I would love love so say its hormones! I honestly hope so, because I promise- I was NEVER this scatter brained before! (Atleast I hope not) I am not so patiently waiting!
At least tomorrow I will test @ 5 days post ovidrel shot to see if the hcg has left my system! I don't know if I want it to or don't.. Apparently the ovidrel shot he prescribed is the lowest dose, I am just hoping it still works correctly!
Enough crazy talk! ;)
So, at 3dpo, I now have 11 days left to wait! Oih! I would love love so say its hormones! I honestly hope so, because I promise- I was NEVER this scatter brained before! (Atleast I hope not) I am not so patiently waiting!
At least tomorrow I will test @ 5 days post ovidrel shot to see if the hcg has left my system! I don't know if I want it to or don't.. Apparently the ovidrel shot he prescribed is the lowest dose, I am just hoping it still works correctly!
Enough crazy talk! ;)
Monday, November 12, 2012
It's all a waiting game now!
I'm only 2dpo... 10 more freaking days!
I am not a patient person. At all. I have filled out my calendar when what CD I am, how many dpo, and how many days past ovidrel (to test).. So, looks like ill test Wednesday and see if its out of my system which I'll be 4dpo ad 5 days post shot.. Ahh,, the torture!
I am not a patient person. At all. I have filled out my calendar when what CD I am, how many dpo, and how many days past ovidrel (to test).. So, looks like ill test Wednesday and see if its out of my system which I'll be 4dpo ad 5 days post shot.. Ahh,, the torture!
Friday, November 9, 2012
I've Been Shot! ;)
Well, I should be officially ovulating in about 12-24 hours! :)
I had one of the nurses at work administer the shot this morning, only temporary burning, and that was that.. I tested with an OPK, it's dark but could be darker! I'll test again tomorrow!
I have a love/hate relationship with the next part.. To "test out" my new trigger shot, I need to take a pregnancy test. If its positive, it worked. Last time I saw a positive test I was checking to see if any symptoms were left after my D&C. So, I want to see two lines, so I know it worked.. Most people continue to test to see when it leaves their system, which makes sense. My dilemma is, do I want it to turn negative (I know it left, but will give me a BFN feeling) or do I want it to remain positive (which could just be hormone and not pregnancy and I won't get that true, OMG I am pregnant feeling).
I shouldn't care at this point, at 14dpo I just want it to be positive and mean it! That's not so much too ask, is it?!?!?
I had one of the nurses at work administer the shot this morning, only temporary burning, and that was that.. I tested with an OPK, it's dark but could be darker! I'll test again tomorrow!
I have a love/hate relationship with the next part.. To "test out" my new trigger shot, I need to take a pregnancy test. If its positive, it worked. Last time I saw a positive test I was checking to see if any symptoms were left after my D&C. So, I want to see two lines, so I know it worked.. Most people continue to test to see when it leaves their system, which makes sense. My dilemma is, do I want it to turn negative (I know it left, but will give me a BFN feeling) or do I want it to remain positive (which could just be hormone and not pregnancy and I won't get that true, OMG I am pregnant feeling).
I shouldn't care at this point, at 14dpo I just want it to be positive and mean it! That's not so much too ask, is it?!?!?
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
& So It Continues!
Oih!
As usual, I see the dr on CD 10 to check my follicles after taking Femara. I knew something was different this cycle. Normally when I go, I am told my follicle is huge, about to release& that I should ovulate that night. That day, my OPK is dark, I feel bloated and crampy and ta-da, I ovulate! Which is amazing for me since I wasted such a long time! However, today was different. I knew it before I went in. I told my husband, something is different or something is wrong. My test line isn't even close to being dark.. I was so nervous for bad news!
Today I saw 6 follicles, with one mature one.. I hope that's a good thing! I have never seen more than one! I was told my mature follicle is 15mm & my lining was looking good, but will thicken. I should ovulate in the next 3-4 days. Sounds good right?!
Then he says, we will start Ovidrel, a shot. Now, I am assuming my body reset itself and my short cycles are no more. I just can't wrap my head around why he is so suddenly prescribing the shot now, when I got pregnant without it?! Maybe because I have more than one follicle or maybe because normally it's too late, and my follicle is about to release? I have no clue and I am forcing myself NOT to use Google!
When asking my doctor (who I love and adore) why my cycle is all of the sudden is the "norm", he said sometimes we just don't question why. We just don't. Makes sense, I still have no clue why I don't ovulate but have a cycle, and my cycle is 21 days long? Or was, I can say that now I guess.
So now, I wait.. Kind of. My calendar is filled with med dosage, dr appts, when to pick up and give my shot, when to start and stop my suppositories (yay-sarcasm). Now, I am not complaining by any means, but I just am amazed at the journey we have to take I order to be able to experience pregnancy.. To experience our baby kick, to feel the excitement of finding out the gender, having a baby shower, to experience labor.. And all the joys of having a little one!
I pray everyday. I need to continue to pray for understanding as well.
As usual, I see the dr on CD 10 to check my follicles after taking Femara. I knew something was different this cycle. Normally when I go, I am told my follicle is huge, about to release& that I should ovulate that night. That day, my OPK is dark, I feel bloated and crampy and ta-da, I ovulate! Which is amazing for me since I wasted such a long time! However, today was different. I knew it before I went in. I told my husband, something is different or something is wrong. My test line isn't even close to being dark.. I was so nervous for bad news!
Today I saw 6 follicles, with one mature one.. I hope that's a good thing! I have never seen more than one! I was told my mature follicle is 15mm & my lining was looking good, but will thicken. I should ovulate in the next 3-4 days. Sounds good right?!
Then he says, we will start Ovidrel, a shot. Now, I am assuming my body reset itself and my short cycles are no more. I just can't wrap my head around why he is so suddenly prescribing the shot now, when I got pregnant without it?! Maybe because I have more than one follicle or maybe because normally it's too late, and my follicle is about to release? I have no clue and I am forcing myself NOT to use Google!
When asking my doctor (who I love and adore) why my cycle is all of the sudden is the "norm", he said sometimes we just don't question why. We just don't. Makes sense, I still have no clue why I don't ovulate but have a cycle, and my cycle is 21 days long? Or was, I can say that now I guess.
So now, I wait.. Kind of. My calendar is filled with med dosage, dr appts, when to pick up and give my shot, when to start and stop my suppositories (yay-sarcasm). Now, I am not complaining by any means, but I just am amazed at the journey we have to take I order to be able to experience pregnancy.. To experience our baby kick, to feel the excitement of finding out the gender, having a baby shower, to experience labor.. And all the joys of having a little one!
I pray everyday. I need to continue to pray for understanding as well.
Monday, November 5, 2012
Infertility Saga + Life Update!
Well, last time we were awaiting to hear from our local school to see if Andrew got the head coaching job and he didn't :(. He was devastated, I am devastated and most of the parents/players are as well! He has worked entirely too hard to be told that he is "attached" to the last coach, and they want to get away from that era! It's frustrating to him and myself, I know what we can do! They do not! The new coach has some "baggage", and our officials even knew that they said, but picked him anyway. It's easy to be annoyed and quit, but hard to stick it out. Andrew is a brave soul, and is going to stick it out. (He obviously doesn't have my grudge holding skills) He is only staying because we all feel the new coach will not last and Andrew should rightfully have the job then!
The rest of our life has basically been work and I have officially started babysitting my cute little niece since my sister and her husband went back to work! It's so much fun and makes my heart smile seeing "Uncle Andrew" hold Kayleigh and even feed her! (Which is a major accomplishment, considering he is uncomfortable since the baby is not his own, Awww). I actually shed a tear or two after feeding and burping Miss Kayleigh, he was playing with her. She was just smiling and cooing... then she vomited all over Andrew and I had to laugh!
Watching Kayleigh makes me more excited and nervous to have a little one. I want a baby so bad and cannot wait to be able to sooth my own little one and know what he/she needs! I have started and finished Femara once again (4th month), and tomorrow I have my official ultrasound to check to see if there is a follice. I am somewhat nervous because my ovulation sticks are being a little weird not aren't producing much of a second line, but we will see!
Also, I x-rayed a patient whose name is Delani. I am now in love with that name! Plus its a D to match mine! :) I'm not sure if it outshines Ella yet, but its a close second!! :) :)
Danielle*
The rest of our life has basically been work and I have officially started babysitting my cute little niece since my sister and her husband went back to work! It's so much fun and makes my heart smile seeing "Uncle Andrew" hold Kayleigh and even feed her! (Which is a major accomplishment, considering he is uncomfortable since the baby is not his own, Awww). I actually shed a tear or two after feeding and burping Miss Kayleigh, he was playing with her. She was just smiling and cooing... then she vomited all over Andrew and I had to laugh!
Watching Kayleigh makes me more excited and nervous to have a little one. I want a baby so bad and cannot wait to be able to sooth my own little one and know what he/she needs! I have started and finished Femara once again (4th month), and tomorrow I have my official ultrasound to check to see if there is a follice. I am somewhat nervous because my ovulation sticks are being a little weird not aren't producing much of a second line, but we will see!
Also, I x-rayed a patient whose name is Delani. I am now in love with that name! Plus its a D to match mine! :) I'm not sure if it outshines Ella yet, but its a close second!! :) :)
Danielle*
Mr. Logan Clelland {6 Months}
I work with Logan's Mommy and have been DYING to get my hands on him! He is such a cutie pie! He did awesome! He probably thought we were crazy at time, but we got some good ones! :)
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